"Life would be perfect if sweatpants were sexy..monday morning's were fun..junkfood didn't make you fat..girls didn't cause drama..boys weren't so confusing..you always had the time to do what you wanted..nothing was regrettable..and goodbye only meant until tomorrow."
~ Anonymous (but found by mr. de grau)
26.12.04
30 seconds....
sometimes i wonder what's up with my youngest brother... he is the king of "out-there, random, whacko" humor! as we were standing in the kitchen he suddendly tells us that in 20 seconds we all need to laugh out loud for 30 seconds straight... so he looks at a stop clock, and when the "appointed time" came, he busts out laughing - loudly - uncontrolled - for 30 seconds straight, as my parents and i look at him with a mixture of shock, disbelief, and humor. he kept it up exactly for the 30 seconds and then totally stopped... i mean, the crazy thing is that you just can't help but laugh with someone who is so "out there...." he is soooooo crazy!!! so, now he just goes around, looks at me, and says "30 seconds".....
25.12.04
it's all in a name....
my word... if kids are as hard to name as a dog.... after the second day of discussing a name, we've finally decided on PANCHO. WElcome to the family, Pancho!
24.12.04
may the wonder never cease!
had a long drive "up-north" last night and loads of time to think about life... heard this song and was so struck by a sense of awe and wonder.... just think - this creator came to earth... my heart's desire is that i will never lose that sense of awe and worship! reckless abandonment!
indescribable ~ chris tomlin
from the hightest of heights
to the depths of the sea
creation's revealing your majesty
from the colors of fall
to the fragrance of spring
every creature unique
and the song that it sings
all exclaiming--
indescribable, uncontainable
you placed the stars in the sky
and you know them by name
you are amazing, GOD
all powerful, untamable
awestruck, we fall to our knees
as we humbly proclaim
you are amazing, GOD
who has told every lightning bolt
where it should go?
or seen heavenly storehouses
laden with snow?
who imagined the sun
and gives source to its light?
yet conceals it to bring us the
coolness of night
none can fathom....
indescribable, uncontainable
you placed the stars in the sky
and you know them by name
you are amazing, GOD
incomparable, unchangeable
and you see the depths of my heart
and you love me the same
you are amazing, GOD
indescribable ~ chris tomlin
from the hightest of heights
to the depths of the sea
creation's revealing your majesty
from the colors of fall
to the fragrance of spring
every creature unique
and the song that it sings
all exclaiming--
indescribable, uncontainable
you placed the stars in the sky
and you know them by name
you are amazing, GOD
all powerful, untamable
awestruck, we fall to our knees
as we humbly proclaim
you are amazing, GOD
who has told every lightning bolt
where it should go?
or seen heavenly storehouses
laden with snow?
who imagined the sun
and gives source to its light?
yet conceals it to bring us the
coolness of night
none can fathom....
indescribable, uncontainable
you placed the stars in the sky
and you know them by name
you are amazing, GOD
incomparable, unchangeable
and you see the depths of my heart
and you love me the same
you are amazing, GOD
23.12.04
22.12.04
snow flakes...
have you ever choked on a snowflake??
well, it can happen!!! i've become a believer!! walking across campus today to get the office mail and it was so cold outside that i inhaled too quickly and choked on a snowflake... ja!! it's true!!!
crazy stuff!!
well, it can happen!!! i've become a believer!! walking across campus today to get the office mail and it was so cold outside that i inhaled too quickly and choked on a snowflake... ja!! it's true!!!
crazy stuff!!
21.12.04
coconut trees, goodbyes, and latin spice...
another change in season ~ another season of change... and it should be good, i think.
i usually like to think of myself as an optimistic person when it comes to dealing with change. yet, i also recognize that whenever i stand at the threshold of change, i have to take a big gulp (and perhaps force my feet a bit) in order to take that step of faith into the unknown. the only consistent known is the faithfulness and sovereignty of the lover of my soul. in him, my refuge i find.
and so, i marvel that change is a human experience. it comes with lonliness, sadness, pain, fear at times, but also with anticipation, excitement, joy, vulnerability, laughter, peace, faith, and hope.
and it should be good, i think.
i took my friend, dennis, to the airport this morning... he's 33 and he's flying to malaysia to climb a coconut tree to prove his love for a lady. change lies in the air...
i said goodbye to my friend, hannah, yesterday... she's moving down-south, once again, packing up, moving on, and wondering 'why now?' change lies in the air...
i said goodbye to my friend, christen, who leaves for greece for 3 months.... she wonders what the lord will do in those three months of her life and what she will come back to. change lies in the air...
i search my heart for an answer to the many questions stirred by a caballero de mexico. change lies in the air...
and it should be good, i think.
search me, o GOD, and know my heart;
try me and know my anxious thoughts;
and see if there be any hurtful way in me,
and lead me in the everlasting way.
ps. 139:23, 24
i usually like to think of myself as an optimistic person when it comes to dealing with change. yet, i also recognize that whenever i stand at the threshold of change, i have to take a big gulp (and perhaps force my feet a bit) in order to take that step of faith into the unknown. the only consistent known is the faithfulness and sovereignty of the lover of my soul. in him, my refuge i find.
and so, i marvel that change is a human experience. it comes with lonliness, sadness, pain, fear at times, but also with anticipation, excitement, joy, vulnerability, laughter, peace, faith, and hope.
and it should be good, i think.
i took my friend, dennis, to the airport this morning... he's 33 and he's flying to malaysia to climb a coconut tree to prove his love for a lady. change lies in the air...
i said goodbye to my friend, hannah, yesterday... she's moving down-south, once again, packing up, moving on, and wondering 'why now?' change lies in the air...
i said goodbye to my friend, christen, who leaves for greece for 3 months.... she wonders what the lord will do in those three months of her life and what she will come back to. change lies in the air...
i search my heart for an answer to the many questions stirred by a caballero de mexico. change lies in the air...
and it should be good, i think.
search me, o GOD, and know my heart;
try me and know my anxious thoughts;
and see if there be any hurtful way in me,
and lead me in the everlasting way.
ps. 139:23, 24
15.12.04
the spirit that loses itself in love
the kingdom of GOD belongs to children. certainly that does not mean that we should not be real men and women; the childlike spirit is not childish but rather unites itself with real manhood and real womanhood. it is the spirit of confident trust, of humility and endurance - the spirit that rejoices and loses itself in the object of its love and is released from self-contemplation. it gives itself completely, unaware of strain and sacrifice, and spends itself as though absorbed in play. it is the spirit of courage, for the true child - like the true man and woman - is never afraid or fearful. it is the answer to all our needs, for the childlike spirit comes from the holy spirit. let us believe that this spirit really exists and that we can receive it.
~eberhard arnold, 08/1933
~eberhard arnold, 08/1933
17.11.04
thou shalt not kill
"We kill at every step, not only in wars, riots, and executions. We kill when we close our eyes to poverty, suffering, and shame. In the same way all disrespect for life, all hard-heartedness, all indifference, all contempt is nothing else than killing. With just a little witty skepticism we can kill a good deal of the future in a young person. Life is waiting everywhere, the future is flowering everywhere, but we only see a small part of it and step on much of it with our feet."
- Hermann Hesse, German poet and novelist.
- Hermann Hesse, German poet and novelist.
5.11.04
24.10.04
confused...
for what it's worth... this 3rd consecutive weekend in chicago graced us with 70+ degree weather (see previous entries).... how strange to be able to go out to a dinner party wearing short sleeves when last weekend i was bundled up in my wintercoat.....
21.10.04
20.10.04
your thoughts...
what is happiness?
IS ....
-happiness being content right here right now?
-happiness love; loving and being loved?
-happiness family?
-happiness material wealth?
-happiness laughter?
-happiness peace of mind?
-happiness ....
what do you think?
IS ....
-happiness being content right here right now?
-happiness love; loving and being loved?
-happiness family?
-happiness material wealth?
-happiness laughter?
-happiness peace of mind?
-happiness ....
what do you think?
19.10.04
the unheeded secret
"JESUS answered, "My kingdom is not of this world" (John 18:36).
... An active Christian worker too often lives to be seen by others, while it is the innermost, personal area that reveals the power of a person's life.
... The central point of the kingdom of JESUS CHRIST is a personal relationship with Him, not public usefulness to others.
... You have no idea of where or how GOD is going to engineer your future circumstances, and no knowledge of what stress and strain is going to be placed on you either at home or abroad. And if you waste your time in overactivity, instead of being immersed in the great fundamental truths of GOD's redemption, then you will snap when the stress and strain do come. But if this time of soaking before GOD is being spent in getting rooted and grounded in Him, which may appear to be impractical, then you will remain true to Him whatever happens.
my utmost for his highest, oswald chambers, october 19
... An active Christian worker too often lives to be seen by others, while it is the innermost, personal area that reveals the power of a person's life.
... The central point of the kingdom of JESUS CHRIST is a personal relationship with Him, not public usefulness to others.
... You have no idea of where or how GOD is going to engineer your future circumstances, and no knowledge of what stress and strain is going to be placed on you either at home or abroad. And if you waste your time in overactivity, instead of being immersed in the great fundamental truths of GOD's redemption, then you will snap when the stress and strain do come. But if this time of soaking before GOD is being spent in getting rooted and grounded in Him, which may appear to be impractical, then you will remain true to Him whatever happens.
my utmost for his highest, oswald chambers, october 19
17.10.04
chicago
it's been entirely too long.... sorry about that folks... spent another day in chicago today, meandering amongst thousands of folks, running in and out of stores, bundled up against the wind, and doing the loop of michigan ave, millenium park, navy pier, and back to michigan ave. this is the second weekend in a row that i've been in chicago - and i'm going back there next weekend.... :) last weekend i saw my brother run the chicago marathon and today we were down with some internationals...
it's hard to believe that the temperature dropped from 75 degrees last weekend down to the 40's this weekend... sick! only in the mid-west.... sigh.... fall weather has set in...
it's hard to believe that the temperature dropped from 75 degrees last weekend down to the 40's this weekend... sick! only in the mid-west.... sigh.... fall weather has set in...
29.9.04
little zwerg...
a kind jolly face, eyes looking ahead up towards the sky
wrinkles that sag past his rosy, flushed, like apple-looking cheeks,
his solid white beard speaks of wisdom, of age, of laughter,
of knowledge.
knowledge gained perhaps from the book permanently wedged under his arm.
a book that i will never be able to remove to know at least the title.
one foot in front of the other, his boots speak of hard work, of labor, of travels (perhaps).
where are you going, little zwerg?
are you taking the 'gute nachricht' into all the world?
no baggage, just one foot in front of the other.
a book.
the word to sustain you.
the WORD.
so many places to go. your feet are positioned ready to go.
yet, here you are, at the end of a coffee bar called lemonjello's.
wrinkles that sag past his rosy, flushed, like apple-looking cheeks,
his solid white beard speaks of wisdom, of age, of laughter,
of knowledge.
knowledge gained perhaps from the book permanently wedged under his arm.
a book that i will never be able to remove to know at least the title.
one foot in front of the other, his boots speak of hard work, of labor, of travels (perhaps).
where are you going, little zwerg?
are you taking the 'gute nachricht' into all the world?
no baggage, just one foot in front of the other.
a book.
the word to sustain you.
the WORD.
so many places to go. your feet are positioned ready to go.
yet, here you are, at the end of a coffee bar called lemonjello's.
26.9.04
the boys are back in town...
wow! expecting a blast from the past any moment now... :) some of the boys are back in town and are heading over for a bbq... phung, andy vE, ko, ryan p, henry, and matt d. and his family!! wonder what college memories will re-surface...
so it's mid-september and i'm actually sitting in my back yard right now... another beautiful day of sunshine and boat traffic. gotta love it... fall is slowly coming... though the leaves are still bright green... i keep hearing that the reds and oranges will be incredible this year... we'll see if the digital camera will do them any justice...
okay, so last night i did something i haven't done in ages... phung (who is in from sf) convinced me to drive to MSU for his yougest sister's b-day party. we left at 9pm, crashed the party, and got home around 3:30am.... all in all it was another college party... kids still making fools out of themselves... hahahahah....
so it's mid-september and i'm actually sitting in my back yard right now... another beautiful day of sunshine and boat traffic. gotta love it... fall is slowly coming... though the leaves are still bright green... i keep hearing that the reds and oranges will be incredible this year... we'll see if the digital camera will do them any justice...
okay, so last night i did something i haven't done in ages... phung (who is in from sf) convinced me to drive to MSU for his yougest sister's b-day party. we left at 9pm, crashed the party, and got home around 3:30am.... all in all it was another college party... kids still making fools out of themselves... hahahahah....
24.9.04
anonymously...
hey, do you ever feel like you want to start all over? to just pack up, move some place where noone knows you, where you can disappear, and start out all over again?
i wonder what it feels like to be unknown? does that mean you are not popular? or would it give you more freedom?
your definition should not lie in who you are to other people.
(and yes, i do know that we are not created to live in solitude... that's not what i mean.... i think i mean "anonymously".... - can you really live "anonymously" without being a hermit? and how long can one be anonymous before one has a friend?)
i wonder what it feels like to be unknown? does that mean you are not popular? or would it give you more freedom?
your definition should not lie in who you are to other people.
(and yes, i do know that we are not created to live in solitude... that's not what i mean.... i think i mean "anonymously".... - can you really live "anonymously" without being a hermit? and how long can one be anonymous before one has a friend?)
16.9.04
re-fo-cus-ing
11:30pm.... so here i sit in my ikea poang chair.... listening to some spanish love songs (i assume they are love songs based on my weak comprehension skills and the rythym of the song - then again, for all i know he could be singing about his dead dog or some wilted flowers... i don't know).
i felt like writing, but now that i've actually logged on i've realized that i don't know what to write...
had a startling revelation on monday. i decided to take monday and tuesday off this week to re-charge, re-focus, re-energize, unwind... whatever... and ended up stacking wood, raking leaves, cleaning around the house. it was an incredible day (why are we having july/august weather in september???) - and as i was moving wood, sawing wood, and stacking wood, i realized how much i love that type of physical work....
whenever i do outdoor work like stacking wood, i somehow refocus... i feel good about my work... and i feel energized... that's when it hit me.... GERMAN CULTURE: the reason i love that type of physical work is that there is an end product.... i've accomplished something, i've gotten my heart rate up there, and there is an end product... yup - us, germans, need an end product. in this instance it was a beautiful row of stacked wood.
that's why i hate running or jogging... there is no end product (well, at least not right away!) and so i feel like i've accomplished NADA - well, i've accomplished tiring myself out... hahahaha... but other than that.... well, there is just no wood pile....
i told neal that i would like to keep a wood pile behind my office so i can refocus for a few minutes during the day by stacking wood.... he didn't take too kindly to that.... just think - i could be such a productive worker.....
i felt like writing, but now that i've actually logged on i've realized that i don't know what to write...
had a startling revelation on monday. i decided to take monday and tuesday off this week to re-charge, re-focus, re-energize, unwind... whatever... and ended up stacking wood, raking leaves, cleaning around the house. it was an incredible day (why are we having july/august weather in september???) - and as i was moving wood, sawing wood, and stacking wood, i realized how much i love that type of physical work....
whenever i do outdoor work like stacking wood, i somehow refocus... i feel good about my work... and i feel energized... that's when it hit me.... GERMAN CULTURE: the reason i love that type of physical work is that there is an end product.... i've accomplished something, i've gotten my heart rate up there, and there is an end product... yup - us, germans, need an end product. in this instance it was a beautiful row of stacked wood.
that's why i hate running or jogging... there is no end product (well, at least not right away!) and so i feel like i've accomplished NADA - well, i've accomplished tiring myself out... hahahaha... but other than that.... well, there is just no wood pile....
i told neal that i would like to keep a wood pile behind my office so i can refocus for a few minutes during the day by stacking wood.... he didn't take too kindly to that.... just think - i could be such a productive worker.....
12.9.04
life is... II
life is bittersweet sometimes, don't you think?
tomorrow is another day of 'goodbyes'... after an intense month of taking care of 15 japanese students, it's time to say 'au revoir,' 'aribe deci,' 'auf wiedersehen,' 'ciao,' 'sayyonara,' 'farewell,' 'so long,' whatever...
bittersweet? well it is, because this last month, my life has more or less revolved around these kids... and i'm ready to get everything back on track... yet, these are some of the sweetest, funniest, kindest, ... kids and i'm really going to miss them.... who knew the japanese were so full of hugs!!
another goodbye.... another hole left in my heart... this group briefly filled another lacking hole, only to have made that hole just a little bigger...
i hate saying goodbye....
tomorrow is another day of 'goodbyes'... after an intense month of taking care of 15 japanese students, it's time to say 'au revoir,' 'aribe deci,' 'auf wiedersehen,' 'ciao,' 'sayyonara,' 'farewell,' 'so long,' whatever...
bittersweet? well it is, because this last month, my life has more or less revolved around these kids... and i'm ready to get everything back on track... yet, these are some of the sweetest, funniest, kindest, ... kids and i'm really going to miss them.... who knew the japanese were so full of hugs!!
another goodbye.... another hole left in my heart... this group briefly filled another lacking hole, only to have made that hole just a little bigger...
i hate saying goodbye....
7.9.04
life is...
so, yeah... my life is my work....
part of work right now is also attending a class - global poverty... some thoughts:
creation is broken, and the absurdity of it all is that we can learn facts about our neighbors - such as: 24,000 people die a day from hunger related illnesses. of those 24,000 people, roughly 3/4 of them are children. 840 million people are chronically malnutritioned. according to the worldbank, nearly half of the world's population (of around six billion) currently seek out a living on $2/day or less. how many kids just died in the hijaked russian school? over 300? kids!!! innocent kids.... and what else is going on this world to break your heart? yet, we are mostly concerned about the next nfl football game.... don't you think life is absurd?
part of work right now is also attending a class - global poverty... some thoughts:
creation is broken, and the absurdity of it all is that we can learn facts about our neighbors - such as: 24,000 people die a day from hunger related illnesses. of those 24,000 people, roughly 3/4 of them are children. 840 million people are chronically malnutritioned. according to the worldbank, nearly half of the world's population (of around six billion) currently seek out a living on $2/day or less. how many kids just died in the hijaked russian school? over 300? kids!!! innocent kids.... and what else is going on this world to break your heart? yet, we are mostly concerned about the next nfl football game.... don't you think life is absurd?
31.8.04
it's good...
you know that feeling when everything just seems right.... it's just plain good - like the contented GOOD that is followed by a sigh of happiness.... i look around me, think of people that surround me, the environment, and just life in general, and i know that right now things are good - GOOD.
yeah, there are holes in my life that i don't always understand and can't patch right now, but i also know that the lord is just giving me a lots of grace at this time. his joy floods my soul when i look around me.... there's so much to learn about appreciating the little things in life. it makes me think of this summer, when i worked in the garden - the simplicity of having my hands in the dirt, seeing the vibrant colors, catching a scent from a lavender bush, and watching things grow. why do we complicate life so much? why do we try to drown out life by allowing noise (work, tv, radio, etc) to numb and distract our thoughts? why do we need to constantly be busy and on the go? do we fully live life like that? what is it to live fully? to embrace life? the beauty, the simplicity (and the intricacy), the joy, the...
and i wonder what your passion in life is? do you truly know what your god-given passion is? and does it make you happy? happy in your soul, knowing that this happiness is a gift, an offering of praise back to the lord?
when i do look around me, when i interact with students from around the world - when i encourage them, joke around with them, laugh with them, challenge them, learn about and from them, cry with them, hug them, help them, ... i get energized... i feel alive, like i'm fulfilling my purpose right now... i think that joy, that sense of being alive is passion...
and yes, i know not every day is like this, but on the days that it is, it is a powerful reminder of god's love for me - of knowing that he is using me right here right now... and it's GOOD.
yeah, there are holes in my life that i don't always understand and can't patch right now, but i also know that the lord is just giving me a lots of grace at this time. his joy floods my soul when i look around me.... there's so much to learn about appreciating the little things in life. it makes me think of this summer, when i worked in the garden - the simplicity of having my hands in the dirt, seeing the vibrant colors, catching a scent from a lavender bush, and watching things grow. why do we complicate life so much? why do we try to drown out life by allowing noise (work, tv, radio, etc) to numb and distract our thoughts? why do we need to constantly be busy and on the go? do we fully live life like that? what is it to live fully? to embrace life? the beauty, the simplicity (and the intricacy), the joy, the...
and i wonder what your passion in life is? do you truly know what your god-given passion is? and does it make you happy? happy in your soul, knowing that this happiness is a gift, an offering of praise back to the lord?
when i do look around me, when i interact with students from around the world - when i encourage them, joke around with them, laugh with them, challenge them, learn about and from them, cry with them, hug them, help them, ... i get energized... i feel alive, like i'm fulfilling my purpose right now... i think that joy, that sense of being alive is passion...
and yes, i know not every day is like this, but on the days that it is, it is a powerful reminder of god's love for me - of knowing that he is using me right here right now... and it's GOOD.
22.8.04
19.8.04
right now....
it really is a weird concept to start wondering what someone else is doing right at the moment that you are thinking of them.... but i think it only works if you can picture the whole environment, know of someone's schedule and routine, and can visualize it all.... i mean, i can't even imagine the surroundings that chong is in and what he's doing, cuz i have never been there... strange, eh? thanks for weirding me out, chong!! ;)
if you were a fish....
yesterday morning i asked my japanese students some random "what if" questions as part of an esl drill... one of my favorite responses was to the question:
if you were a fish what kind would you be and why?
emi (without much thinking): if i were a fish, i would like to be a salmon.
14 other j-students: oooooohhhhh & ahhhhhhhh
emi (continuing): i like to eat salmon. so i would like to be a salmon so that people would enjoy eating me......
hmmmm.... never really thought about that "self-less" approach.... i wonder what it would be like to live purely knowing that you exist to please someone's taste palette.... that your end is dependent on someone's sushi cravings...
here are some other questions i asked:
*if you were stranded on an island, what 5 things would you want with you and why?
*if you could be born in any country, which would you choose and why?
*if you could tell someone one thing, what would it be and whom would you tell? (interesting sidenote: the j-group assigned, said they would tell brittney spears to stop singing....)
*if you could change 5 things about japan, what would it be?
*if you could be famous for one thing, what would you choose and why?
AND (of course!) *If you had one million dollars what would you do with it and why?
if you were a fish what kind would you be and why?
emi (without much thinking): if i were a fish, i would like to be a salmon.
14 other j-students: oooooohhhhh & ahhhhhhhh
emi (continuing): i like to eat salmon. so i would like to be a salmon so that people would enjoy eating me......
hmmmm.... never really thought about that "self-less" approach.... i wonder what it would be like to live purely knowing that you exist to please someone's taste palette.... that your end is dependent on someone's sushi cravings...
here are some other questions i asked:
*if you were stranded on an island, what 5 things would you want with you and why?
*if you could be born in any country, which would you choose and why?
*if you could tell someone one thing, what would it be and whom would you tell? (interesting sidenote: the j-group assigned, said they would tell brittney spears to stop singing....)
*if you could change 5 things about japan, what would it be?
*if you could be famous for one thing, what would you choose and why?
AND (of course!) *If you had one million dollars what would you do with it and why?
17.8.04
"I want to beg you as much as I can... To be patient towards all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves… Do not now seek answers which cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer… take whatever comes with great trust…" Rainer Maria Rilke (1875-1926)
16.8.04
11.8.04
10.8.04
on second thought it's more like bootcamp...
*pounding the pavement bellowing out chants
*walking in formation
*drill sargents (what do you call them?? - cheer instructors??) meandering through the troops
each group of yellow, red, black, blue, and green work in their own space encouraging a non-existant crowd...
i wonder who their commander-in-chief is... surely he/she surfaces when it's time to rally the troops, blare tunes through the camp, and let 100 adoring teens scream their support.
*pounding the pavement bellowing out chants
*walking in formation
*drill sargents (what do you call them?? - cheer instructors??) meandering through the troops
each group of yellow, red, black, blue, and green work in their own space encouraging a non-existant crowd...
i wonder who their commander-in-chief is... surely he/she surfaces when it's time to rally the troops, blare tunes through the camp, and let 100 adoring teens scream their support.
9.8.04
Was es ist - What it is
Es ist Unsinn sagt die Vernunft (It is nonsense says reason)
Es ist was es ist sagt die Liebe (It is what it is says love)
Es ist Unglueck sagt die Berechnung (It is misfortune says calculation)
Es ist nichts als Schmerz sagt die Angst (It is nothing but pain says fear)
Es ist aussichtslos sagt die Einsicht (It is hopeless says insignt)
Es ist was es ist sagt die Liebe (It is what it is says love)
Es ist laecherlich sagt der Stolz (It is ridiculous says pride)
Es ist leichtsinning sagt die Vorsicht (It is careless says caution)
Es ist unmoeglich sagt die Erfahrung (It is impossible says experience)
Es ist was es ist sagt die Liebe (It is what it is says love)
erich fried
Es ist was es ist sagt die Liebe (It is what it is says love)
Es ist Unglueck sagt die Berechnung (It is misfortune says calculation)
Es ist nichts als Schmerz sagt die Angst (It is nothing but pain says fear)
Es ist aussichtslos sagt die Einsicht (It is hopeless says insignt)
Es ist was es ist sagt die Liebe (It is what it is says love)
Es ist laecherlich sagt der Stolz (It is ridiculous says pride)
Es ist leichtsinning sagt die Vorsicht (It is careless says caution)
Es ist unmoeglich sagt die Erfahrung (It is impossible says experience)
Es ist was es ist sagt die Liebe (It is what it is says love)
erich fried
the invasion...
sigh.... i didn't expect to take a stroll down memory lane - especially not down the overgrown, forgotten path leading back to ejhs. but how could i not remember those "fond" cold nights, sitting on hard bleachers, wrapped in a blanket, trying to balance my attention on the latest marching band formation and "that" cute boy down on the sidelines of the football field - dreaming of him walking with his football helmet in hand towards me declaring his undying love for me..... UNTIL my fantasy land is shattered by a blur of red and black screeching skirts bellowing out the latest cheer...
YES, indeed, what would cause me to take such a walk into the past.... i don't suppose it has anything to do with 100 or so screeching high schoolers outside my office window, trying to out-d0 the other team in noise pollution as they learn the latest style of pyramid formation, backward flips, and toe touches...
alas, my head pounds with new cheers and i'm suddendly a fired up fan of the bucketeers, tigers, panthers, raiders, and hornets. now all i have to do is go to the game... and continue dreaming about "that" cute football player...
YES, indeed, what would cause me to take such a walk into the past.... i don't suppose it has anything to do with 100 or so screeching high schoolers outside my office window, trying to out-d0 the other team in noise pollution as they learn the latest style of pyramid formation, backward flips, and toe touches...
alas, my head pounds with new cheers and i'm suddendly a fired up fan of the bucketeers, tigers, panthers, raiders, and hornets. now all i have to do is go to the game... and continue dreaming about "that" cute football player...
30.7.04
what's in a name....
... got to hang with the love birds, kara and bill, tonight down at curragh's .... one of the highlights definitely was when kara asked me how "strip" and "pudel" were doing.... hahahahaha..... okay, for those of you who don't know my two phat cats - their names are "pip" and "strudel"..... thanks for the laugh, kara... i'm still chuckling....
7:56
how can i set my alarm for 6:15am and not wake up until 7:56?? talk about record timing when you realize you are supposd to be at work in 4 min.... argh!!!
29.7.04
it takes a tck to know one...
.... "mused" away today as i talked with my friend lydia about the idiosyncrasies (is that a word??) of tck's - especially the unique ability to emotionally shut down when it comes to 'goodbyes.' it almost makes me feel normal when i talk to another tck - glad to know that i'm not alone in distancing myself from a situation in order to avoid loss... go figure... things, people, places we often want to hang on to, that we have come to appreciate and love, seem easy to let go... but isn't it all just a facade? it doesn't really ease the hurt, but it sure has become easy to "pretend" that we are immune from it all... yeah, it definitely takes a tck to know one... sometimes it can be pretty lonely to feel that way - until you meet someone who "knows exactly what it's all about..." thank you, lord, for my fellow tcks!!
28.7.04
25.7.04
deliver yourself...
If you have been snared with the words of your mouth,
Have been caught with the words of your mouth,
Do this then, my son, and deliver yourself;
Since you have come into the hand of your neighbor,
Go, humble yourself, and importune your neighbor.
Give no sleep to your eyes,
Nor slumber to your eyelids;
Deliver yourself like a gazelle from the hunter's hand
And like a bird from the hand of the fowler.
Proverbs 6:2-5
Have been caught with the words of your mouth,
Do this then, my son, and deliver yourself;
Since you have come into the hand of your neighbor,
Go, humble yourself, and importune your neighbor.
Give no sleep to your eyes,
Nor slumber to your eyelids;
Deliver yourself like a gazelle from the hunter's hand
And like a bird from the hand of the fowler.
Proverbs 6:2-5
a-squared...
i spent the day at the ann arbor art fair.... what a mass of people... almost reminded me of walking down the streets of harajuku or shibuya. you just kind of "shuffle" along... forget taking normal steps... this artfair started out over 30+ years ago and has grown into 5-6 different artshows all during the same weekend, all within the same area... it's virtually impossible to see all 6 shows in one day....
came across a photographer with stunning photographs of primarily people (and some landscapes) from mongolia, tibet, yemen, and a few african countries... the colors and richness of texture were phenomenal and i went back 3 times trying to decide if i wanted to buy one. yet there was one thing that i couldn't put into words until mi madre saw them as well and verbalized it for me - the guy was making a huge profit on people who come from third world countries, who live their lives in conditions that most americans could never imagine experiencing, much less live in. i somehow doubted that the guy was sharing such profits with his "subjects"... i know, a bit critical perhaps, but really gave me something to mull over - motives, stewardship, education, exploitation... in the end i didn't buy one... although it was tempting to purchase the one with the mongolian horse and rider staring across the vast plains.... mongolia, here i come.... i promise... next year...
(oh, and he did have a great shot of the statue of david surrounded by a bunch of pointing nuns...)
came across a photographer with stunning photographs of primarily people (and some landscapes) from mongolia, tibet, yemen, and a few african countries... the colors and richness of texture were phenomenal and i went back 3 times trying to decide if i wanted to buy one. yet there was one thing that i couldn't put into words until mi madre saw them as well and verbalized it for me - the guy was making a huge profit on people who come from third world countries, who live their lives in conditions that most americans could never imagine experiencing, much less live in. i somehow doubted that the guy was sharing such profits with his "subjects"... i know, a bit critical perhaps, but really gave me something to mull over - motives, stewardship, education, exploitation... in the end i didn't buy one... although it was tempting to purchase the one with the mongolian horse and rider staring across the vast plains.... mongolia, here i come.... i promise... next year...
(oh, and he did have a great shot of the statue of david surrounded by a bunch of pointing nuns...)
23.7.04
all good things must start somewhere....
never thought i would get started into something like this... but seeing that i logged on to check out reiko's blog (and i have all the time in the world as work drags along on a friday afternoon), i decided to give it a shot.... hey, it killed another 13.25 minutes trying to figure it all out... alas, here is the first attempts at chicken scratch.... speaking of chickens... i would really like a duck!
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