re-fo-cus-ing

11:30pm.... so here i sit in my ikea poang chair.... listening to some spanish love songs (i assume they are love songs based on my weak comprehension skills and the rythym of the song - then again, for all i know he could be singing about his dead dog or some wilted flowers... i don't know).

i felt like writing, but now that i've actually logged on i've realized that i don't know what to write...

had a startling revelation on monday. i decided to take monday and tuesday off this week to re-charge, re-focus, re-energize, unwind... whatever... and ended up stacking wood, raking leaves, cleaning around the house. it was an incredible day (why are we having july/august weather in september???) - and as i was moving wood, sawing wood, and stacking wood, i realized how much i love that type of physical work....

whenever i do outdoor work like stacking wood, i somehow refocus... i feel good about my work... and i feel energized... that's when it hit me.... GERMAN CULTURE: the reason i love that type of physical work is that there is an end product.... i've accomplished something, i've gotten my heart rate up there, and there is an end product... yup - us, germans, need an end product. in this instance it was a beautiful row of stacked wood.

that's why i hate running or jogging... there is no end product (well, at least not right away!) and so i feel like i've accomplished NADA - well, i've accomplished tiring myself out... hahahaha... but other than that.... well, there is just no wood pile....

i told neal that i would like to keep a wood pile behind my office so i can refocus for a few minutes during the day by stacking wood.... he didn't take too kindly to that.... just think - i could be such a productive worker.....