the most random thought fleeted through my head as i was brushing my teeth and getting ready for bed.
it is "easier" for me to talk to god on behalf of others rather than talk to god about myself - my heart, my desires, my pain.... it's as if i don't know how to put things into words before the lord and i stop my thoughts from developing any further. yet, committing others into god's care is completely different.
why is that? is anyone else familiar with this feeling?
...one tomato at a time...
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(anticipatd) Summer Reads 2010
- INVICTUS by John Carlin
- MENNONITE IN A LITTLE BLACK DRESS by Rhoda Janzen
- MONKEY HUNTING by Christina Garcia
- HUNGER AND HAPPINESS by Shannon Jung
- THE 1ST BORN ADVANTAGE by Kevin Leman
- TEA WITH HEZBOLLAH by Dekker & Medearis
Spring Reads 2010
- FORGOTTEN GOD by Francis Chan
- RASHI'S DAUGHTER'S: I-III by Maggie Anton
- THE SHORT SWEET DREAM OF EDUARDO GUTIERREZ by Jimmy Breslin
- ONE HUNDRED YEARS OF SOLITUDE by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Winter Reads 2009/10
- LA'S ORCHESTRA SAVES THE WORLD by Alexander McCall Smith
- THE MISSING ROSE by Serdar Ozkan
- THE GUERNSEY LITERARY AND POTATO PEEL PIE SOCIETY by Annie Barrows
- PEOPLE OF THE BOOK by Geraldine Brooks
- THE ELEGANCE OF A HEDGEHOG by Muriel Barbery
Summer Reads 2009
- WHY ARE ALL THE BLACK KIDS SITTING TOGETHER IN THE CAFETERIA? by Beverly Tatum
- DREAMS FROM MY FATHER by Barack Obama
- THREE CUPS OF TEA by Greg Mortenson
- MY NAME IS ASHER LEV by Chaim Potock
- BIRDS WITHOUT WINGS by Louis de Bernières
- SARAH'S KEY by Tatiana de Rosnay
- SKIN by Ted Dekker
- THE BOOK THIEF by Markus Zusak
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2 comments:
I soooooooooo know what you're talking about!
I always find it easier to petition for others than myself and am often not honest with God in what I need or desire......for me I often think it's about control.....can I trust God enough with my hurts, dreams, pain.....intellectually I know I can....sometimes its just difficult telling my heart that......
Have no idea if this is what you were talking about!!
~Love ya~
I have that too. I think I feel more altruistic when I pray for others than when I pray for what I want....almost as if it's selfish that I have hopes and dreams but it's ok for others to have them. I think that if I focus on my hopes and dreams too much I'll get frustrated with God so it might be easier to just avoid dealing with them. :) Great question though.
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