time to think.....

it's ironic.... but there are times lately when i think, "stop.... think.... reflect... (big SIT word)....." and i fall asleep.... really, it's not that my thoughts are so boring.... (well, i hope not), but more that i keep thinking... "oh, let me get one more thing done, then i can kick back.... and process life." but i feel like i haven't gotten to that point lately.... and there are SOOOOOO many things running through my head..... things i want to reflect upon.... that i want to ponder and analyze..... but i just don't do it....

i'll be honest.... lately, i feel a bit like a dud..... life seems to be revolving around work. this week alone i've had something at the college every single evening..... and i'm just tired....

there's been a yearning in my heart lately for something deeper, richer, more colorful.... there's got to be more than letting your work dominate your life..... BOUNDARIES. ahhhhhh..... sigh..... so, deeper i go.... and when i get deep enough i pray that things will become more and more clear.....

sometimes even my posts lately have not been very creative or thought provoking....

i better get my act back together.... hahahahahahaha

on another note, one more week before i get to see mi amor in canada..... maybe that will bring some creativity back to my dull life.... ;)

keep ya'll posted!

by the way..... can i just tell ya'll that the politics at work are insane??? i think i've got enough research topics for my CT thesis..... hahahahaha.......