chapters in life....

sometimes it's hard to see another season in my life pass by..... more than anything i realize that it's also the beginning of something new.... but it's still hard..... standing on the verge of the final month of grad school, i'm catapulted to the last time i went through a major change like this.....

every day during these last two weeks i think about the rollercoaster emotions i felt when i left holsby four years ago.... wanting to cram in every minute with as many people as possible ... to get that last walk through the woods in.... to meander down the railroad tracks one last time.... to sit over a cup of tea and listen to someone's voice one last time... to want to make every minute count.... and then it's done.... people move in and out of your life.... and you try to make the memories last forever.

it's community.

and yeah, living on campus isn't always easy... but right now, i know that i'm going to miss having people around... i'm going to miss the company of sitting around and doing nothing.... of being among friends who are on the same schedule as i am.... of eating meals together.... and sitting around the cafeteria for long times just talking about what's next and what life is all about.... of just having people around - talking... not necessarily to me... but making noise so that i know there is someone around if i need to talk..... i'm going to miss this....

i'm sad that i was so anxious to get out of here 9 weeks ago.... i wish it was november right now.... and that i could be here for another 6 months with the people who have become an international family to me.

so, change. it comes, it goes.... as cliche as it sounds, it is the only constant thing. it hurts and yet it's the start of something new....