david

.... these last 24 hours seem like some sort of a nightmare... i keep praying that i will wake up and see dear david walk through the door - his big smile, his crazy hair. it seems so unreal.... except that it is very real -- it's real as i sit with the students.... and tears run down our faces as we hold each other. it's real when i think of the pain the two families are going through. it's real as we try to figure out what needs to happen next....

i keep thinking about him.

his greatest loves in his young life: 1) God and serving his kingdom, 2) his family in Kenya, and 3) flying.

i will miss him tremendously.... anyone who ever met david was immediately impacted by him and his great desire to serve the lord as a missionary pilot.

i'm exhausted..... more later.

my spirit runs dry

i just sent an email to a friend that went something like this:

My spirit is low these days and I just feel tired .... in part I long for a year of Christian fellowship like I experienced when I lived in Sweden. At this point, being immersed in that type of a setting sounds good again... (never thought I would come back to that point). Anyway, I hunger for the Lord's spirit and for a place to get away. Just to be..... not to have to be on the go all the time or to meet anyone's expectations, but just to be.

Hmmm... the psalm comes to mind. "Be still and know that I am God."

well, so much for starting 2010 off with a bang!

i long for the long walks in the woods of holsbybrunn, for the opportunity to not be responsible, in charge, or required to say, to do, to be a certain way except to learn more about being a child of the almighty and to rest in his presence.

i'm tired.

i miss community.
friendships.
the joy of pure laughter.
fun.

i'm drained and my spirit runs dry.

living water, fill me with your spirit!