for those of you wondering....

folks (especially andy!!) .... in case you were wondering if henno ever made the friday deadline... ummmmm.... no.

however, he did just post on sunday a lovely pic on his blog, so if you click on the nice h23bubbles.blogspot.com (or on the link provided on the right... just click on 'henno') then you'll see the wonderful pic of julie and henno. you guys make a nice couple!!

thanks, henno, for making me go dig for it... hahahahhaha... i told you i'd get word out.... ;)

my other side....

whew.... so i feel like i'm living a double life now that i've activated another blog.... in some strange way, i feel like i'm cheating on my beloved 'chickenscratch'...

no worries, i will maintain the random ramblings on 'chickenscratch' as well as the occasional post on www.xanga.com/otomotis

i just don't have it in me to be unfaithful..... chickens and ducks.... (and yes, amy.... my first permanent summer back in mi will bring a little duckling my way..... i promise!!)

decisions, decisions....

argh..... why??? i swear, sometimes i have the hardest time making decisions.... well, actually it's more of always wanting to leave the backdoor open for something else... just... in... case.... rediculous, actually. especially when i already know what i want to do... but then always feel like i have to think it over and over and over.... and i end up going back and forth.... even though i know what i will do, i always feel like i'm letting people down.... and where do boundaries come in?? ... why can't i just say 'no'??? sigh.... this indecisiveness definitely seems to be the long road .... i think this is hereditary.... i got it from my parents and it'll probably get passed on to the next generation after me... sigh.... this is crazy... it urks me to no end in terms of my parents and then i fall into the same traps.... argh!!!!

henno, you are in big, big trouble.....

sigh... i'm so ready to get back to michigan.... my friends are living their lives without me!!! ;)

i know that sounds selfish.... hahahahahahaha..... i just miss you guys way too much!

yesterday i FINALLY was clued in that henno has started to date someone... after what? 6 weeks?? i mean, come on, henno, you are one of my best friends and you can't pick up the phone to call me and tell me??? and maggee, what are you thinking??? you are supposed to keep me posted especially on news such as this! bah!! my question is... andy or phung, did the news travel your way already??

after years of sitting through skiles with you two boys... that's all you can offer??

okay.... well, so much for being in on the loop!! hahahahahaha

henno, you have until friday to send me the picture! don't forget!!!

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that special place....

do you have a place that you escape to? a place that is just your place? a place where you can let down your guard, not worry about what people think, say or do? a place that you don't want to run into anyone you know.... a place that you might not want to take others to? a place that is so familiar to you that it allows you to dream... to remember... to meander....

my friend, emma, just wrote about her special place... it was so descriptive that i longed for that place myself.... i wish i could 'return,' though i've never been there myself....

and then i remembered one of my own places that i used to have while growing up.... my quiet place was in the horse barn, curled up in a corner, smelling the mixture of sweet hay and straw, feeling the gentle breath of the horse on my face, hearing the grinding of the hay in the horse's jaw, and knowing that i was safest there.... a place where i was understood... a place where i could dream.... a place where i could cry... a place that i could get away....

it seems like it's been a while since i've had a place to escape to... no horsebarn to sit in.... i miss that.

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food for thought....

here is the most bizzare of all fortune cookie tags i have ever come across.....

If you think you are too small to be effective,
You have never been in bed with a mosquito.

clever, isn't it?? i mean, the more i think about it, the more it makes sense.... mosquitos are pesky little critters... either they zoom around by your ear all night long, or they bless you with bites all over the place... they don't go away... until they get squashed....

let's hope we don't get squashed in the midst of trying to be effective agents of change!